I have been plagued by a recurring dream for as long as I can remember. As most of you know, I lived a long part of my life as a professional golfer and traveled all over competing. In my dream I am playing in a tournament and either I lose a club and have to go back through the course searching or the group I am playing with plays faster than I and leaves me while they play ahead.
The feeling of frustration in the dream is so real that I can feel it when I wake up and it lingers throughout the day. All of this ended many months ago when I finally finished the round of golf in my dream. In this dream I was competing and my round was diverted down a hallway with many doors. I was searching each room behind the doors while realizing in my mind that I was missing out on the tournament and had to return before I was disqualified.
Somehow I returned to the course and was on the last tee box. In my mind I was telling myself to finish, once and for all finish this thing and let’s celebrate! It was so vivid and clear. I went through the exact routine I always have and hit a 3 wood to 3 feet, approached the green, knocked in the putt.
I had finally finished the dream that had haunted me for more year than I could remember. It felt better than any tournament I had ever finished or won!
Now I have a new haunting dream and it always relates to me being back in college. Last night I dreamed that I was back on campus and sitting in a math class. Seems normal because mathematics was my major for a number of years.
In this dream I am dropped in the middle of a semester and am confused about the subject. It seems that I enter the class part way through the semester and have no clue what is going on. But I must pass this class in order to graduate, but I am so far behind that there is little chance of passing. I struggle through the class, leave and go to eat lunch at the student union. There is no food left as they are closing, but the manager gives me complimentary pie as he feels sorry for me.
I do not get to eat the pie. Sad.
The dream leaves feelings of frustration and angst.
I wonder if the dream is a subconscious manifestation of fear? Or maybe doubt?
I’m not sure.