Today I find myself avoiding it. I know I’ve written about this before and just like before, I will face it, eventually.

This is my struggle: when there is conflict that means people are unhappy. When people are unhappy, well, it just stresses me out. Yeah I know, life is not always rainbows and butterflies. I just need to, once again, put on my big-girl panties and deal with it and I eventually will. Avoidance is temporary, until I can gather my thoughts.

You know what the real problem is? Gathering my thoughts means too much thinking. I’m trying to plan out how this conversation is going to go and thinking of all the ways that this person is going to respond/react and I’m trying to plan out my responses to her responses/reactions. It’s giving me anxiety because it does not play out well in my mind.I know I am…