Rainy Days Make Me Contemplate Life…
It is interesting that rainy days force me into deep introspection. Maybe it is the changing of seasons from winter to spring? I’m not sure, but today it is rainy and I can’t get my brain to shut down.
I have a lot of change going on right now. I am about to begin a new MS medication. I have an upcoming procedure for an on-going medical issue. My role in my job is changing. I am in month 3 of therapy which brings its own challenges. And the combination of all these things happening at the same time has my head spinning.
Rain feels refreshing. It washes away the dirt and the pollen and brings about growth and life. Rain represents new beginnings and a chance for a fresh start.
Sometimes I would like the option to hit pause. I’d like to be able to stop life from happening so quickly and take a moment to breathe; collect my thoughts before other events cause new thoughts and worries. But, alas, it isn’t an option. Regardless of how overwhelming things can seem, this rock keeps on spinning and I have to find a way to work through problems while maintaining my composure.
Maybe I could clone myself and use my clone like a stuntman in a movie?! Every time I need a break I just call in the clone to take my place for a day while I relax on the couch?
Now that is a solution I could get behind.