Hospital for medical reasons, bipolar meds needed – going back on.

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Going off the bipolar meds and anxiety meds most likely caused my hospital stay. My sugars were extremely high, my chest was tight and had painful fluttering, my blood pressure was high and so was my heart rate. I was dizzy and out of breath.

They did all the cardiac tests including a cardiac catheterization. My heart is fine which is good news. I caught a nasty cough from my roommate in the hospital. Still have it and it is almost 3 weeks later.

Went to Endochrinologist for my blood sugars. He left me on most of my oral meds and added Victoza which is a daily injection in my belly. Now I have no appetite at all. Sugars too low and the thought of food makes me sick to my stomach. Friends and family want me to eat and I don’t want to.

Extreme anxiety sent me back on…

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Conquering The Darkness

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Depression.  It sucks.  It blows.  It hurts.  But it is NOT something you can’t conquer.  This post has some tips and tricks I’ve picked up along the way.

  1. You. It starts with you. In any bad time in life, whether it be your physical shape, your mental shape, or even your fashion choices, if you don’t like it, fixing it STARTS.  WITH.  YOU.  YOU have to be the one to break free from the darkness.  No amount of friends, family, doctor’s, or drugs can bring you out of depression unless you make the conscious decision that you want to beat this.  Because you can do it, but ONLY if YOU WANT TO.  you have GOT to take the first step.  I listen to “The Ziglar Show” Podcast, and a quote from Zig Ziglar in the introduction is perfect for this. “You’re what you are and…

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Beating Depression: Just Smile!

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Hey guys!  I’m back with a new life lesson I’ve learned, one in which I believe is extremely important and an incredibly easy thing to do to help get out of a Dark spell.  That lesson is being pleasant.  All.  The.  Time.

Now I know what you’re thinking.  “Be pleasant all of the time??? Lo, that sounds exhausting.”  That’s what I thought too when I witnessed it for the first time.  However, after trying it for the past week, I can honestly say that being pleasant consumes a ridiculously smaller amount of energy than being rude/indifferent/ in a general bad mood.

The people I have to thank for this valuable lesson are Lindsay and Shay Hayes, owners of Viridian Coffee (FANTASTIC coffee might I add, 10/10 would recommend), one of the places I am currently blessed to be employed.  These two people are two of the most phenomenal people…

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I think I am going to faint…

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Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

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New Memories (Daily Word Prompt is Clean)

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I wish I could clean my mind of the many bad memories I have from my past. These memories sometimes flash very brightly and vividly into my conscious mind at unexpected and unwanted moments for no apparent rhyme or reason.

Flashes of unwanted memories haunting me and repeatedly being replayed in my mind like a bad old movie causing me to have to relive the past event and feel the horrific emotions of fear, sadness and extreme anger I felt at that time. The painful memory reminders from my past seem so real as if I am living them over again today.

Where is the magic eraser to permanently wipe off all my bad memories written and pictured in my mind?

Where is the magic tweezer to magically pluck out each and every one of my bad memories from my mind one by one so they will never return again?

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Having a Baby Was Supposed to Be the Happiest day of My Life (Daily Word Prompt is Baby)

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Everyone has different goals, dreams and aspirations for their life. Ever since I was a little girl my biggest dream for my life was to be a mommy. I couldn’t wait to be a mom.

I was going to be the best mom there ever was in the entire world, loving my children       more than I was ever loved and treating them kindly and making them feel like they were the most special children, treating them in ways that I was never treated. Once I became a mom, my life would be so perfect and I would be forever happy, so I thought.

I was teaching Special Education when I became pregnant with my first child at the age of 28 years old. I always loved the beauty of the miracle of pregnancy and I loved my beautiful baby growing inside of me inside of my tummy.


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I Will Love Myself (Daily Word Prompt is Lovingly)

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Throughout my life I have not liked myself but,

I will lovingly accept who I am.

Years ago I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder and

I will lovingly accept my illness and who I have become.

My passion is to increase awareness, educate and reduce the stigma of bipolar disorder so,

I want to lovingly be the voice for many that cannot speak for themselves.

I will share my story and journey of living with bipolar disorder

openly, honestly and lovingly to let others know they are not alone.

I will stop talking about myself negatively and

will speak about myself positively and lovingly.

God made me uniquely beautiful and flawed but,

I will lovingly embrace myself and my life just the way it is.

“People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in their true beauty is…

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Mental Illness – Fighting Stigma Head On!

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When I was diagnosed with depression, bipolar, and other mental conditions in my 30’s (late 80’s – early 90’s), I felt ostracized in every part of my life.

My family was clearly embarrassed. My parents and older sister only saw my diagnoses and not me. To them, we were one in the same. Maybe at first, this was true; however, in later years (after my Mom passed in 1995), neither my sister nor my Dad could see (or maybe admit) any improvements in me. This would just bring me back to being that sick person in their presence.

My work (for the Provincial Government) also treated my time off for depression as if I was in quarantine for something contagious. My boss met me outside the back door of our building when I went to pick up some papers I needed. He said he didn’t want me to feel uncomfortable…

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Bipolar Disorder in children and teens – Day 10 – of 31 days of October link up

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Bipolar Disorder is not usually diagnosed in children under 6 and even then many doctors are not sure of the child having Bipolar when it could be ADHD (Attention Deficit Hyperactive Disorder). If your child is diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder you might want to get a second opinion with a doctor you trust.

Now I had Bipolar as a child. I would have been around 6 years old although my anxiety started as an infant. I am 59 now and back then they didn’t discuss mental health concerns.

I went through my teens not understanding what was happening to me. The mood swings. The mania where I didn’t sleep for 3 months and then the depression. I had rage issues although they were usually kept inside. I did more banging of things than breaking things like my son whose rage had him breaking things all the time.  It has just…

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