Anxiety spiraling into major depression?

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Last week I wrote about my son’s dissociation episodes and panic attacks.   He got some anti-anxiety medication there, but they put him to sleep so they haven’t been useful to him, and the panic has not gone away.  He’s been able to manage it a little better, using some mindfulness tricks, but has not been able to see a doctor yet (he will tomorrow).  His two trips to the emergency room just told him what he already knew and gave him a few pills for the panic.

Since last Monday, he says he has had 14 panic attacks.  Today he tweeted this:

the last 2 weeks ive been in a very dark place. im constantly afraid, never happy. ive lost all hope and happiness. i feel broken. I’m only able to focus on my faults. making choices triggers panic attacks. im so fucking scared of life itself. help me.

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A Big Announcement Coming In 2018

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I have something I will be talking about in 2018 that is incredibly personal; probably more personal than any topic I’ve ever discussed on my page.  It relates to something that has revealed itself in my therapy and I’m not even sure how I’m going to tackle it.  I know it is a big deal for me based solely on the fact that I have found myself reluctant to even discuss it at all and, based on the fact that I talk more openly on Dream Big than anywhere else in my life,  I have major reservations.

I have cried more this past week than I have over any one thing.  It has rocked me to my core and has created a lot of uncertainty in my spirit and mind; honestly I feel myself going into a bit of depression.  The only reason I don’t start writing about it now is I don’t think I am through the “processing” aspect of the realization.  In time I’ll begin writing about it and I can see Dream Big taking a slight turn in focus for quite some time.

For now I’m going to leave it alone, I simply wanted to let everyone know what is going on and what is in store for the future.  I hope all of you have a great New Year and a productive beginning to 2018!!

Your friend,

Danny

Seasonal Depression

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As you experience the changes of seasons from summer to fall and later winter, this is usually the time when our emotions take a shift as well. If you’re like me, it is usually during the times of when it starts colder that it translates to my wellbeing. Seasonal depression, commonly referred to as Seasonal Active Disorder (SAD), is just as important as depression and it is something that needs to be taken seriously. If you’re not sure you  have or experienced seasonal depression, according Mayo Clinic these are the common symptoms that follow

  • Severe depression
  • Changes in apetite 
  • Heightened sensitivity
  • Oversleeping
  • Low energy

Especially during the holidays, its very easy to slip in to the cycle of sadness for various reasons. You may see others who are happy with their friends and family during Thanksgiving or Christmas and it reminds you of an aspect that you lack in your…

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Suicide Prevention Month

Suicide is an option that is chosen when hope, faith, trust, and love are no longer experienced in a persons life. It is when these pillars of the heart that every human being needs, and has a right to…

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The Depression Series Part 4: Prenatal and Postpartum Depression

The journey of pregnancy and having a baby is a joyous and exciting time, where your life changes in numerous yet amazing ways. From that time of finding out that you’re pregnant, to the whole transition during those 9 months, to the moment you hold your baby for the first time, each and every one…

Source: The Depression Series Part 4: Prenatal and Postpartum Depression

Danny’s World: There’s A Spirit of a Storm In My Soul

As I sat on the beach this morning and listened to the waves crash I couldn’t help but think of how far I’ve come since I started this blog.  There was a time when I was experiencing tremendous internal turmoil.  Basically, my insides were a raging dumpster fire.  I was so lost.  Sitting there I remembered this song that was once my anthem:

“Spirit Of A Storm” – Kenny Chesney

There’s a spirit of a storm in my soul
A restlessness that I can’t seem to tame
Thunder and lightning follow everywhere I go
There’s a spirit of a storm in my soul.
There’s a hurricane that’s raging through my blood
I can’t find a way to calm the sea
Maybe I’ll find someday the waters aren’t so rushed
Right now they’ve got the best of me
And oh, it’s been a long, long time
Since I had real peace of mind
So I’m just going to sit right here
In this old chair till this storm rolls by.
Oh, maybe it’s just the way I am
Maybe I won’t ever change
So I’m just going to sit right here
In this old chair and just soak up the rain.

 

There’s a spirit of a storm in my soul
Every time I think it’s gone away
Dark clouds gather, that old wind begins to blow
The sun’s going to shine someday I hope
There’s a spirit of a storm in my soul, in my soul.

 

The Depression Series Part 3: Bipolar Disorder

What do you do, when you no longer trust yourself? When you want to reach out to others, but you know they just won’t understand. What do you do when you are diagnosed with bipolar disorder?  To experience shifts of moods or emotions in our everyday life is completely normal and natural. Our external and…

Source: The Depression Series Part 3: Bipolar Disorder

Today’s Featured Blog…Saying What Goes Unsaid!

Saying what goes unsaid

Chris Cornell’s death hit many of us quite hard, and one of the things I keep hearing is that it was especially hard because he was someone who had beaten his demons. I saw very similar comments when the toxicology report recently came out about Carrie Fisher’s death.

There is no denying that it is hard. Mental illness is really hard. But that so many people consider relapses and suicide risk shockingly unexpected outcomes of mental illness suggests a profound misunderstanding of what it means to battle it.

Despite what movies might have led you to believe, mental illnesses like depression and substance use disorders don’t have a single cause — and treatment rarely is a matter of exorcising particular demons (or memories). Even psychologists who believe that there is something to be gained from reaching into and airing out a traumatic past believe that this process requires repeated…

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Conquering The Darkness

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The Bipolar Storyteller

Depression.  It sucks.  It blows.  It hurts.  But it is NOT something you can’t conquer.  This post has some tips and tricks I’ve picked up along the way.

  1. You. It starts with you. In any bad time in life, whether it be your physical shape, your mental shape, or even your fashion choices, if you don’t like it, fixing it STARTS.  WITH.  YOU.  YOU have to be the one to break free from the darkness.  No amount of friends, family, doctor’s, or drugs can bring you out of depression unless you make the conscious decision that you want to beat this.  Because you can do it, but ONLY if YOU WANT TO.  you have GOT to take the first step.  I listen to “The Ziglar Show” Podcast, and a quote from Zig Ziglar in the introduction is perfect for this. “You’re what you are and…

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