Physio and Brain scan

I would like everyone to meet Dinosaurs, Donkeys and MS!!

Dinosaurs, Donkeys and MS

This week was my first ever physio appointment. Having never had physio before I wasn’t sure what I expected. In my mind I was imagining some sort of fast paced exercise routine that left me feeling ten times dizzier than when I arrived. Thankfully it turned out to be much gentler. The most strenuous part was arriving at the wrong entrance and a trying to be helpful man marching along the corridor to take me to the right place. I felt like saying something but ended up going for my usual approach of not saying anything while trying to shuffle along at a reasonable pace and not topple over in the process. Then it was an hour of questions and gentle pushing on limbs. I was so impressed with how lovely everyone was and the location. This is the garden and they even had sheep!


I am also so grateful to the MS Society for funding the treatment here as otherwise the wait…

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The Blogger Q&A Tag

I would like you to meet MSnubutterflies!!


First of all thank you to Jen from Tripping Through Treacle for nominating me. Like Jen I think these are fun because it gives us a chance to get to know each other better.

Jen also writes about her journey with MS. She is among one of the many chronic illness blogs I enjoy. Please stop by and visit her.

As much as I enjoy participating in these types of post I feel I should apologize in advance that my answers may be short or may seem not to be well thought through. I’m in a bit of a fog today and finding it difficult to find words and put thoughts together. It would seem smart to wait for a better day right! Honestly I don’t know when that will be and knowing me I would forget about the post all together. Lol. So it is what it is. I’ll…

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#Blessed Project

Susie Lindau’s Wild Ride has begun a project I love called #Blessed Project.  It is a simple idea, but one I think we should all practice more often.  Here is my #blessed list:


  1. I am blessed to have a wife that puts my needs above her own.
  2. I am blessed to have the love of our little puppy Bentley.
  3. I am blessed to have shelter, food and a car.
  4. I am blessed to have a loving family that supports me.
  5. I am blessed to be able to spend time with my blog family here on WordPress.
  6. It is a blessing to have technology.
  7. I feel blessed to have had my eyes opened to the importance of taking care of my body.  MS might be my greatest blessing.  3950078_1429260939_0243_updates

I encourage you to participate.  Click Susie’s link above and visit her site for the “rules” of the project.  I think it is important to not allow think about the things you are blessed to have in your life, but to also take the time to write them down.  Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah and Happy Holidays!FullSizeRender



What We See of Others Is Often An Illusion

We’ve all heard the expression ‘What you see is what you get.’  Well, this is not always true.  One of the most aggravating things about having MS is hearing people say “you don’t look sick.”  As if there is some particular way those living with MS should appear.  I guess I missed the memo.


What we see of others is often an illusion.  For some the illusion is self-created to block others out.  For others the illusion is created out of necessity to survive day-to-day.  Regardless of the circumstances it is not always easy to know what is going on with someone internally.  I can say that I am guilty of being quick to make judgements even though I work so hard to fight it.  For some reason it is so easy to assume the person who just changed lanes on me is an idiot.  The truth is I have no idea what that person might be going through.  Maybe they just received terrible news and are on the way to see a loved one in the hospital?  Or they might be exhausted from working 3 jobs as a single parent to provide for their family?

The illusion that I create is my body doesn’t hurt and I am okay.  I don’t complain much about the daily pain that comes with Multiple Sclerosis.  I don’t see the benefit of being that person who looks for sympathy.  The truth is that even if someone took the time to listen, they really only care for a moment and then move on to their own problems; this is the reality of life.

It is only when I take a deep breathe and step back that I remind myself to be more aware of what others might be going through.  A smile instead of a scowl could be the difference between someone pulling a trigger and someone seeking help.  Don’t depreciate your value to the world around you.

Take time to pause before reacting and consider the other side of the equation.  When you do you’ll see that we all need to be slower to judge and quicker to sympathize.

The Beginning of Change

Introducing MSnubutterflies!!


In no way do I feel sorry for myself or do I feel like why me. I am no different to anyone else though there are times that are hard. It is how we choose to face that and our attitude that makes all the difference. Life is constant change, self growth, acceptance, and adapting. This is just another one of those moments in my life.

As the physical and mental drain of the past few months set in I find myself having some difficulty adapting. For some this is probably hard to understand or relate to. Not only am I faced with a body that no longer works the way it once did but the mental drain is taking a toll on me. For me this was harder than the physical aspect.

Your mind is overloaded with constant thought and awareness of what you are doing and those around…

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Mixed Emotions

I would like to introduce MSnubutterflies!!


Just two days before  WalkMS 2016.  Beautiful Butterflies has raised $3567 so far. Great job team!

I owe a big thank you to Greg without him this wouldn’t be possible.

I’m a bit torn this time and didn’t expect to feel this way. Don’t get me wrong. I’m still excited and looking forward to it very much. I look forward to it every year. It gives me something to focus on. A goal to reach. It also helps in some way to be in a group of people who I know are brought together by a common thread. When you see everyone there together you realize you really are not alone. I’m touched and inspired by all the strength around me.

With that being said I have been going through a pretty tough time for over a month now. This is the worst relapse I’ve had in two years. The daily…

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